alone with a cat

im here in my bed
the drugs to take to make me sleep
to take away what clogs my head
fills it will grogyness
and strage images of what
i need not see anymore

it brought back fear
and it brought back confusion
worst of all it brought back her
and now do i wish i had what i dont want

november is always by my side
which is nice
i know someone loves me
and he stayed three days now
when ever i wake he is there
by my side
a paw to my chest to make sure im there
or at my feet and when i stur
he looks up to check

still i take the little blue pills
and wait till and effect comes along

do i dare go to sleep
and dream of confusion and her
or try and fight it off
and lay away
with a paw on my side and he snor
telling me life should be easy