reflection in a dashbord

i foud my self driving
to work again
but driving
and having the same feelings
well....
feeling close to the day
that i had along ago

once i drove up a hill
to a place i called a second home
to get a person i use to love
to go to see her father off to a different world

well today
was a drive to work
knowing that a friend
is seeing his brother
off to that same world

i asked someone
to tell me
keep me informed
and he did not
nor did he tell anyone else
noone is happy

so i found my self driving
with some of the same feelings
but this time
i smiled
insted of cried
something made me smile
and a short laugh came out of my mouth
the volume startled even me
but what a strange feeling

insted of a dark sarrow
i felt a light happyness

where did that come from
and why did it happen to me?