Three fingers

to day i still see what stupidity is
i looked down at my hand
i start to pick at it with my pocket knife
poke at the calises
poke to find that they are liquid filled
underneeth the pressure
the release of liquid feels better
i can still remember
i was out of it
i decided i wanted to cook
and the stove was hot
i can see the lines
still an engineer
i knew
hand under cold running water
hold ice in the hand
good thing i was out of it
cuz the pain would have drove me insaine
she just walked away
we dont talk about it much
and i refuse to show her