restart

gone to feel like hell tonight
with tears of rage i i can not lie
i will be the last to help you to understand

i finished a book yester day
chaperter 16 for me was harder than i could ever imagine
the book is call Three Weeks Wtih My Brother

i wont go into the details
but i read it in three days

for anyone that know who i am
if i could devour a book like that
in that short of time
it may be worth looking at

the emotions it pulled from me where refreshing
i have been living in the dark for a long time

i rejected faith
i rejected family
i rejected friends

i gave up on water
i gave up on earth
and never tested the air

i was living a world
of wandering
i was not a nomad
i was not looking
i was just moving
no place to run to
but it seemed like i had to start

a chage in the wind was on its way
but i never thought it would come from here

money really ment nothing to me
never had and never will

november is being neglected
and i feel horable about it
the one thing in my life that needs me
a furry month you could say
and i no matter what he cry's
or what he does for attention
i decide to ignore him

i really dont know where life is going
or what it holds for me
and right now i guess im not in the mood to care

i guess i got what i wanted
i asked to move to some where new
where noone knew me
and just start over

my start over is very lonely!