Time to Turn this around

its been a long time since i have spoken
and negaticity has become a friend again
it is like an old scar that wont go away
and so easy to fall back on
but between these two moons
i try and say
i am going to try and make a pledge
to keep november's insperation pure again
only write to perk curiosity
to make some one think
not about what is here
but to look inside them selves
maybe it is not for you to look inside your self
maybe it is for me to look insed
and find out what is really going on with me