a drink of truth

a mistake
i made a mistake
again
i...
well i did what i said i would do
and when i woke up i found my self imbaresed
so now....
im going to stop.... kinda...
im going to limit my self
im going to hold self controll
no more...
i dont want to wake up feeling the way i did
and after where i was
it could have been so much worse...
it should have been so much worse
but....
maybe i should just stop totoaly
for a while and see
we will see

i ask my self the question of why
and the same answer comes back
the one i dont like so i am going to try and change that
but not replace that

two fluted

Time to Turn this around

its been a long time since i have spoken
and negaticity has become a friend again
it is like an old scar that wont go away
and so easy to fall back on
but between these two moons
i try and say
i am going to try and make a pledge
to keep november's insperation pure again
only write to perk curiosity
to make some one think
not about what is here
but to look inside them selves
maybe it is not for you to look inside your self
maybe it is for me to look insed
and find out what is really going on with me

Why dont you listen

ok i made a statement
i said something that i feel
it came from the heart
and some one twisted it around
and around and aournd
now it sounds like i support something i dont
but it clearly seys that i dont
i said "I dont support that"
but some one took the dont out
and now im pissed
beucase some one didnt listen and now i got to defend my self
sigh.... fuck them

Your maken my life suck

I know you didnt get what you want
and i know i havent been here that long
i know you know almost everything here
but i still have not done what you have done
or tired what you have
i know what everyone thinks of you
yet i cant tell you
i wont tell you to shut up
and i cant
i dont want to be another to hold you down
the way you hold your self down
but eventho your life sucks right now
your dragging more with you
and my life is not the greatest as it is
and now your making it worse
but i dont have the heart to tell you to shut the fuck up