time lost

There is a feeling
deep inside my head
where only i can see
and shudder at what i think
but i ask my self
and then i dont know
i am lost between two thoughts
one is of safety
and the other of security
where do i go
i know what i can do
but then where would that lead me
so now i am lost
there could be a light up there
i think that could be it
time is what i need
but it is not what i have