I was once there

i inhale
and remember
i can see everything
but what i see i dont know
it could be black as november
or as clear as love
but all i know is this smell
i feel weight less
and i can move again
i can remeber
i can smell
i want to be back where i belong

slow move

eyes of wire
and skin of leather
slowly moving between reality
and the space between
a craving for sperits
becuase i dont have one
a smile of grace
and eyes to match
nice to meet you

Incredible Reality

Clipped wings of faith
blood reaching for something
pain as a feather falls
a smoke filled room
where thoughts and words
confuse more than one
a strugle of emotions
that sounds
and colors
could only explain
the pearce of what is known
brings back something familiar

earily morning

my eyes open
i see you there
and you know it
then it is drark
i strugle to lift my head
but i cant
i panic
i fight to lift my head
all i want to do is breath
and turn around and see you
fight you but my head is held down
stugle and stugle
something is wrong here
then its over
i pull the blankets off my head
look around
chest and arms tense from the fight
ready to kill whats in sight
im ready
for nothing that is there
but was it nothing
or was it him again
i haunt my self some time
and i try to go back to sleep

in search of

i held my hands wide open
cought you
when your wings got cliped
then you fell though the spaces in between
and i was left alone
people behind me
holding my back straight
and making sure i woke up every morning
and now
walking tall
i find my self
in search of
afraid of
and not wanting to

not so far away

HA
how dare you
travle far from home
and talk see and play with people
never come close to me
never call
and then guilt me
I have never been that insulted
you never called me a name
but you swore at me
you
swore at me,
dont start with me, i dare you
dont even start,

I dont play nice
never have
never will

I will walk home
bluddy fists
broken bones and turned off heart
and not care
done it too many time and willing to start all over
the other side of the earth is starting to look inviting again!

amber

Light flowing like water
throw clear as water pains
and all i can do is watch
hands as un clean as faith
and dirt as true as blood
all i can do
is watch